Deppression???????????????????…

do i need anti depressants because i have a lot of trouble sleeping i mean i lay in my bed for at least 4 hours every night and i just cant sleep its like my mid just wakes up and i cant stop thinking about stuff that has happen such as not fitting in with the crowd getiing into fights getting into trouble with the police and cutting myself with blades and all this just seems to haunt me... i kow i need help but i just cant get myself to go to the doctors for help because i feel like everyone is agaist me and im the odd ball of the world and i realy need to kno howi can make myself feel normal